i'm not good at lying
when i said:
i like you, i really do
i hate you, i meant it
i don't care, means i don't REALLY care
i know that feeling, means i UNDERSTAND you, buddy.
that night when i listened to your problems and i said that i knew how are you feeling but you said i don't and i knew you were thinking i was just comforting you. i was kind of~ disappointed? is it the right word ? yeah,,a lil bit disappointed because you couldn't trust me and you kept that frustration by yourself. then, what that me make me as your friend? should i prove something so that you can trust me ?
i had been through such hard times for the past 2 years or is it 3 years? yeah, it was during school. for you guys, it was the best time ever. but to me, i was ecstatic when school ends. it wasn't because i hate rules. just, i hate how people judges me. i hate how the teachers, my friends judge me. i know it wasn't just my feeling. i had no intention to visit the school since i have nobody precious there. even the teachers. as though they would care less if i were visiting. i dare to say they wouldn't care at all. these really hurt my feelings.i used to be depressed because of these.
see my friend, your situation and mine are different. but it was the same feeling. i later learned that, these kind of people is actually everywhere. so, where ever you go, we will still meet with these people. what left for us, just endure it even if it was hard.
p/s: i was thinking to leave a comment but it was too long. so, i wrote a new entry :) it's okay to cry ciko.
sam :'(
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