haunted

i've been thinking about something these days. i think, i kept a lot of things by myself than shared with my close friends.the truth is, when i say 'i have a lot of stories' but that's not A LOT. LOL. back then, i used to have such great friends *that what i was thinking back then* and we used to say 'i miss u a lot, i love you' it sounds cheesy *yukkss* also, there's no secret between us. to gain trust from somebody we called friends is hard right, but i do trusted them. until one day, i realized that they weren't great at all. should i say that they betray me ? maybe. i was hurt. of course. lol. never mind. great friends are everywhere. but i am not the same anymore. i can't say 'i 'miss you a lot,i love you' ,  i'm lack of stories. alter-ego ? i don't think so. it's just that i'm afraid to hurt again. i rather hear their stories than telling my stories. it's fun when you know something right :DD lately i discover something about my unlucky life ? that's not a good term. whatever. okay. this is it. when i started to get closer to someone, that person will eventually leave me. fr example? there's a lot. lol. so, do you understand why now ? i'm sorry my friends. i'm not good with words. hope you guys will stand by me forever :)

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